Today

This last week has been a little over rated if you ask me. Its funny how you think you know something and then as soon as you turn the corner the thought has changed. Its not that change is bad i have already determined that change is growing and growth is fine. Fine for those looking in. I feel that i am unable to put into words how i feel and now that i have lost my song I wonder if life as i know it can go on. for once i wish that there was someone that understood me and that, that person did not leave at the wrong time. I long to know where my place is in the world. i have always felt that this life was not my own. Though i find comfort in knowing that there is more to this life then me at the same time i live for reinsurance that there is more then just today. I'm not sad i just think that this feeling will never go away and the this might not be my only pain. I look in a box each day hoping to find what i long for yet all i find is once again something more.